What I Feel.
Rachel,
Let me first start by tell you that I don’t know how this week was for you. I don’t know how much you missed me, or if you had a good time. I hope you enjoyed yourself because it would be really sad if you went through the same hell that I went through. I missed you so much. Works can’t explain how painful it was for me.
I went very quickly from missing you to sad. The fact was that you didn’t give me any time, and I can’t understand why. Can you honestly tell me that we talked enough this week? It made me cry thinking about going to bed without hearing your voice. You couldn’t find two minutes every night to call me and tell me you love me. I can’t imagine treating you the same way for any cause.
I quickly moved from sadness to anger for the way you were neglecting our relationship. You also hit me hard with your convictions which you didn’t have time to talk to me about, and kept teasing me about your tattoo and nose ring. Last night I asked for you to call me and you again couldn’t until 11:38pm. What were you doing that was so important that you couldn’t take thirty seconds and call me? How could it not have occurred to you that it would upset me? Today I thought things might be different and that you would talk to me. No such luck. I called you to tell you about my meeting and you ignored me three times. I turned off my phone for the rest of the day.
All that said, I love you dearly and miss you so. I wanted to call you all day, but wanted you to miss me too. I’m still mad at you, but we can talk things out. Remember that I’ve been upset all week and you haven’t given me the time to work it out. We need to talk this out now that your back.
Your Branden
