My sorrow filled apology.
Rachel,
Yesterday I did something horrible to you, I intentionally hurt you. There is something in me that wanted to hurt you, because of a build up of my feelings. My feelings don’t always make sense. As a woman I expect you can empathize. Please don’t be sad, or feel mistrustful of me. I love you. When I saw you crying I instantly wanted to make it better, I wanted to hold you and take your pain away. I wish I could take it back. I pray that you haven’t hardened your heart to me, and that I haven’t tarnished your love for me.
I betrayed your trust by hurting you, I have no excuses. I only have my selfish heart to blame. I don’t always know what I want, but this affair has reminded me that I do want you. I love you Rachel.
Yours,
Branden
Rachel said,
July 2, 2009 at 2:07 pm
Thank you baby for saying that. I do forgive you, but it did still hurt. I felt a little weird today acting like we were back to normal, because I guess I still have a little healing to do. I want to be back where we were, I just think it will take a little bit of time for me to be all better. I know how you bottle things up and eventually it’s all gonna come out, I guess I just wasn’t at all prepared for it. You surprised me so much!! Maybe next time you can give me a little warning or something:]
I love you with all my heart, and I am really glad that you still want me. The thought started to creep into my mind that you might not want to be with me anymore, but I just pushed it out and thought about something else. I don’t doubt for a second how much you love and care for me, and I know that you want to spend the rest of your life with me. I can’t wait to marry you and I’m so happy to know that even when we are so mad at each other or hurt, we can talk it out and work things out for the better. I think it makes us stronger and better as individuals and as a couple.
I love you branden, Always and Forever!
Rach:]